I appreciate your comments

I took all your comments and spent the night and day thinking about it.  I have come to a conclusion that is about half way between what you are saying, and what I can do.

For me... food is comfort.  I used to have cigarettes to do the comforting.  That is a entirely different conversation.... however it fits here because............
The only way I could quit smoking was cold turkey... jumping in with both feet and not looking back.

To me losing weight is that same mindset.  I have read and read and talked to my doctor and from everything I know... when you eat plays NO part of how you digest or burn calories.  It is simple math.  Calories in minus Calories burnt.  It's that simple.  Of course you can take advantage of (I can't think of the word so I'll call it) forward progress, metabolism boost or whatever you want to call it and keep your caloric burn going with simple proteins and healthy carbs. 

What I am doing is keeping my caloric intake at 1200 calories or less daily while exercising and burning at least 2500, leaving a deficit of 1300 calories per day.  It takes 3500 calories to lose one pound, therefore if I keep these #'s daily, then each week I will lose 2.6 pounds. 

Now... please understand this is a goal I set for myself when I was working toward transplant, then LVRS ... now it is for my health.  It is a goal to reach that by June.  If I don't the world won't end for me.  It just gives me something to work toward.  It is not unreachable... just big enough for me to push myself.  Much like what I did quitting smoking.... only with food you have to give yourself measured doses of it while trying to do away with bad habits associated with it.  CRUEL isn't it??  lol

I appreciate everyone worrying about me.  I go to the doctor at least once a month and get on their scales.  They take my pulse/blood pressure/oxygen levels and I have my blood drawn more than anyone should...so if I were lacking something they would be the first to tell me to slow down or stop. 

I really had to look internally after I read every ones comments.  I am pushing myself, yes.  I sometimes (hell, most the time) set unreasonable goals for myself, yes.  I go at things 500 miles an hour, yes. 

Seeing myself gain 4 pounds after taking a week off made me realize that I need to push myself.  It's O.K. for me to have a day here and there, but going that far off is not healthy for me, and not helping me.  I was angry with myself.  But it wasn't the end of the world and I can recover from it, get back on track and be fine.

I appreciate everyone comments, I love the fact that you all cared enough to say anything.... I just am feeling so good watching my pants get baggy.  I look in the mirror and see a difference.  That is so good for my self esteem ... which took a big hit this year. 
I will soon enough be able to look at myself in the mirror and have the cannula be the only thing I dislike about myself.