Weigh in

Keeping in mind that I didn't go to weigh in last week ... today again was weigh in day.  I lost 2.8 pounds.  I am still trying to make up for the one week that I gained 4 pounds.  I didn't make up all of it, but it's a good start. 


As you can see  ^up there^ I have lost inches.  Well, lost inches and gained some in the process.  Just fat shifting around before it jumps ship I guess.


I did reset my goal date.  I just got too far behind gaining the weight that I did so, I reset my goal date to be July 4th, instead of June 12th.  I still have a goal set to lose 2+ pounds a week, but I am not constantly staring at big red #'s that show me how far behind I am getting. 


When I set my goals and I didn't think all the way through about how much I can exercise consistently, and how if I am on steroids it's more difficult to lose weight.  So... I am giving myself a break. 


I got on my trampoline yesterday with every intention of keeping up with my 2 hours a day... and I couldn't get through 15 minutes.  I mean... I got to 12 minutes and my lungs hurt so bad.  My body just was not going to let me exert myself .. so I just ate less and drank water and went to bed. 


There will be days like that, but I also have good days.  Very good days actually.  Yes, while I exercise I have my oxygen cannula on, and yes I still can't go like anyone else.  But I do have good days where I can get in 2 hours of cardio before bedtime.  I can make sure I get over 10k steps in one day.  Those are good days.  And if I am allowed those good days I will take an occasional days that I can't do much.


There are 3 main things that tell me that I have lost weight and even better inches... and those 3 things are........
-When I go to bed at night if I am laying on my back ... I can intertwine my fingers and rest my hands on my stomach and my elbows rest comfortably on the bed.  It used to be that my elbows couldn't touch the bed.  Now, they not only touch it, but lay on it!  That's progress.
-Another thing is (LoL.. sorry but it's progress) ... when I sit down on the toilet instead of just padding... I can actually feel tail bone to seat.  That hasn't happened in a long time. 
-Also getting out of the shower I can reach all the way around myself to dry off, instead of having to stretch to reach certain areas.


For someone reading this who has never had a weight issue, you probably won't understand how significant these moments are. 


The last 3 nights I have not slept.  I will lay there and doze off then wake up thinking it's time to get up and only a few minutes have passed.  3 nights like that.  I have been tired anyway, this just makes doing anything a chore.  I just feel exhausted.  I have had a few days of strange feelings with my heart rate, feeling shaky and sweating.  It comes out of the blue.  Today I took my pulse thinking that maybe my O2 levels weren't high enough, but they were fine and my blood pressure (can't remember the #'s) was alright.
It is kind of like the coffee jitters only it's not caffeine, and there is sweating involved.  I am going to the Dr. on the 10th ... I am going to bring this up along with that one episode I had in the middle of the night.


I will try and do better about blogging.  I am putting recipes together and will start posting them.