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Thursday, January 26, 2012

A painful ending.

I have not much to say tonight.  I am heart broken and feel empty.  My relationship with my husband (ex) of 29 years has ended.  I am doing my best to keep things civil and not comment or get involved in bickering.  I would like nothing better than to remain friends and just understand that we can't be together anymore.  I don't think he feels that way.

I am now trying to figure out what to do about where to live.  He seemed to think we could live together until he finishes work on the house (which has been going on for about 8 years) and we can sell it and split the proceeds.

I am trying to get on HUD housing and find a 2 bedroom apartment or duplex or something.  I can't do yard work and I will have Priscilla with me.

I am afraid.  I am kind of in shock.  Even though it was mutual and I had been talking to my daughter about ending things, it just took me by surprise tonight when he said mean and hateful things.  Attacking my mother who has passed away.  Saying my anxiety attacks are fake and just for pity or attention.  That I can do a lot more than I am doing.

Enough.  I promise I will not trash him.  He is a good, kind man.  It's just a sad ending to a relationship that lasted over half of my life.


Bonnie said...

Kellie, I'm so sorry this is where you are with your husband after so many years. I know you have to take care of yourself now. I hope you were able to get together with a counselor to help you through this separation. You must have so many feelings about your illness and I'm sure it has also affected your husband and daughter. A counselor could help you to deal with them and give you some much needed support. You're in my prayers everyday and I wish you peace today and everyday!

Spunkie said...

Bonnie thanks for saying it all. Kellie I know with support you will get thru this. You will always be in my prayers Hugs

Kellie said...

I will ask for counciling at my next Dr. appointment in Feb. Thank you for your support.

I didn't sleep and today is his birthday so we are having friends over. Talk about uncomfortable.

I'll post later tonight.

Today I just feel sick to my stomach and have diahrria. It's amazing what nerves and stress can do isn't it?!